I can not think clearly. Thoughts tangled in a thick web. What I have to do is what I do not want to do. It's hard
to act as if everything is alright. I know it's not. I know things that hurt, I just can't bring my self to ask or say whats really on my mind. Every time I try my heart beats 30 miles per hour, as if it's racing my thoughts. Thoughts that clutter my mind.
I've done, what was needed to be done. No need to explain my self. I all ready have, seems the message has not got through soul. Maybe misunderstood by my words I've written. I want an understanding that stands as a statement from my heart onto. I'm trying to be more positive. Lose all the things that distracts me in life. Work on
my relationship with my Bio teacher(i don't like her). Besides that, numbers don't mean a thing. Distance matters. So close any moment your face could appear, myself unaware. Then so far I can't touch.
I hate when they say your to young to know anything. But I do know what I see. Things confuse me on the spot, I'm stuck with no reaction, just to walk away as if nothing happened. As if I haven't seen a thing. My mind dwells hard, but, my words will not spill from my mouth. Stuck with Bubble yum. Swallowing every word every period, every comma, and every breath. Unsure of the reaction I'd get.
It's an confession I will not live to tell.......